I do not sit still very well, never have. My mom tells me I used to eat meals walking around the table. I still eat most meals that way. As I sit with Brenda, I get antsy. Ezekiel noticed and pulled me aside. I told him I need something to do. He said, “you are doing something.” “How about you just sit here and relax?”
I am unsure I know how to do that so I could use some prayers.
The Psalmist speaks to me today, “Be still and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10. I begin now disciplining myself to rejoice in being still. This is a new world for me and requires great trust. All these years I always just ran to the next thing I needed to do. Now being still is all there is. Here is what I have learned so far, in just a few days.
1. Brenda wants me to be still. That alone is reason enough to learn how to do it.
2. TV, as ludicrous as I see it, can be part of being still.
3. I can be still in shifts now. Maybe in a while I will last a little longer.
4. The most important part of being still is trust. The deeper I trust in God, the more valuable is my being still. Trust leads to a deeper relationship. Stillness with God keeps the light on. In years past whenever I tried to be still with God, we got into an argument. Trust has replaced arguing. I am learning my place at the table. Perhaps as we share communion this week and light candles on Friday, we can begin by simply being still, trusting.
~Grace and Peace ~
Pastor Ernie